You see, ever since page one of CM, Fritz has been like this:
There are a few brief chapters where he actually *gasps* embraces a different emotion…
…but that emotion soon spirals into this…
…and soon Fritz is back to being—yep, you guessed it—like this:
He has every right to feel this way, and it’s crucial to the story, but if I’m getting overwhelmed by it, certainly readers will, too, right? But then I remember how I’ve been working on this book since July 2011. That’s a long time to be sharing such a depressive mindset with my protagonist. Readers won’t be with him as long, so maybe it’s not as bad as I’m fearing, and they won’t wish to reach into the book and slap him after just a few pages.
But there’s also only so many ways a writer can describe a character crying, hyperventilating, and curling up into fetal positions. Fritz has easily abused all three of these heaps, so each time one of them happens again, I really don’t know how to write it, despite knowing what to write, because I feel like I’m repeating myself at this point.
So, the solution? To stop writing and start revising from the beginning. Maybe all of these fears are just in my head, and once I reach where I left off, I’ll feel confident enough to dive back into writing. Or maybe they’re not in my head, and by revising, I’ll have enough of the manuscript fixed to write with ease again. Either way, I now have a copy of CM printed out to better appease my Inner Editor. See?
As you may have noticed, I changed the manuscript to look like the insides of a real book—i.e., made it pretty—to better detect suckitude and thwart such suckiness with my red pen. I have a feeling I’ll get obsessed with this, so if it suddenly seems like I’ve disappeared from the blogosphere, that’s why!